#479

The worst is when you call to them after you hear seizure-type sounds and they do not respond. They are still. They do not move. The heart starts to pound as you fear for the worst... The fear of death is growing, and it is not my own death that I fear. I don't know what to do if I find her dead. 911? Who knows... All I know is I'll be as afraid they'll think I did something to cause it as I fear her death itself. I wish to go before I see anyone else go before me... Call me selfish but I don't know what I'd do if more people die before me...I'll be alone in this world that's for sure...